[[.Happy Birthday!.]]



[[. Hasril Sufianto .]]







It's his special day today. He was born on this very date, 26 years ago.
To him, this date (30th september) is not important and it's just like any other day.

But i want him to know that it is important. it is important and it is very special because on this very day...
he was came into the world, he cried his first tears, he recieved his first love ( his family)

and without this day, i would have never found a great boyfren and the fren in him.
and without him.. my life will never be complete.




To ,
My Sweetheart

HAPPY 26TH BIRTHDAY!!
may you always be happy, be given the best of health.
may Allah bless you...


lots of love,
sarina

i thought my 2 bestfrens forgot my bday or maybe they were just " malu" cause they havent bought me any gift yet, thats y... they went silent.
not even a simple sms to wish me..

As for my bf? hmmm..... i was at least hoping he would call to wish me, but no he did not :( in the morning... i msg him. but still no reply.

Feeling rather down on the morning of my bday, i forced my self to cheer up.
At work... i was greeted with lots of hugs, kisses, wishes and i even got lots of gorgeous gifts.



at about 11am, i was surprised by a bouquet of lilies. it was for me!! and........ its from Hasril ( Oh wow!! i was really3 surprised and touched)
it was sweet of him to actually do that... basing on the fact, he's not the romantic kinda guy ;)


around 6pm, my staff surprised me with a bday cake... awww.. so sweet! :)

At bout 7.30pm....... me and sharon made our way to newton ( she has been craving for it)

As i was seating there.... planning in my mind what to order, Lulu, Zai and izam( zai's fiance)suddenly surprised me from the back... ( hehehe.. i knew they wont ditch me)

Not long afer, my darling also came and gave me a kiss ( to think he said he cant join me for dinner!)


:) now i know, that actually it was all planned.


honestly, its really the best girt i can ever ask for. 1) To know that Sharon and my girls can now click...


2)celebrating my bday with all the important people of my life... i was in a state of ecstatic. overwhelmed and touched.

(if only they knew........ how badly i was holding myself from tearing. if i did, confirm " paiseh")


3) i got the most gorgeous wallet from Swarovski complimentary form lulu, zai and sharon.

4) to actually get another gift from my darling- an enchanting charm bracelet













Last of all... i just want to thank you guys for making this , the most memorable day...

up next, my darling's bday 30th sep, Sharon's bday 05th oct, Lulu 18th oct... anyone wanna chip in with ideas? cash is defenitely accepted! ;)

Today is the point where ive reached the stage of breaking down. I've had enough of this life im living.

Everything i do, never seems to be good enough. I fail as a daughter. I totally suck being a manager. As a fren, i dont even know wat exactly im doing anymore, as a sister im the worse.. and as a gf? i dont even fucking know.

Im just so sick and tired of people not being appreciative of my presence.
if im such a pain in the ass,

then just make me vanish!

people tend to compare me with other people. i know im not perfect. but for once...... will SOMEBODY just open up their eyes, and see how hard ive been trying.


please oh please........... im not such a bad kid. everysingle thing i do, i put my family first. but y? y am i always still bad to my parent's eyes??
i worked so hard, i cry my self to sleep thinking and trying to solve the probs in my family.
but in the end? im still an ungrateful child........


my staff that i train with my own bare hands, that have been working with me for years...
ends up dissapointing me.

at times, i ask my self... as a daughter and the eldest in the family, have i done my part?

as a manager.......... am i even fit to be one?

as a fren....... have you even be there for them ?

as a gf...... am i perfect for him?


which, the answer is NO to all of the question.


haiz...

i have a confession to make. i stumbled upon this video clip of siti nurhaliza.
as the vidoe clip atarted to play....... i suddenly realised that im actually starting to like the song.

at first i was one of those people who didnt really like the idea of her getting married to that Old Rich Man. but after listening to the song, my hearts seems to change.

Deep down i actually prayed for her happiness. I guess, after all im still a lady with a soft heart..


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Those pics were taken last saturday. My company had a picnic in East Coast Beach.
it's been long since i had fun. although at first it was kinda tiring, having to do marketing, preparing and even cooking. but it was all worth it. :)
especially when it my staff told me they love the chicken curry i made. hehe..
but not everyone like it..... Sharon ( my buddy at work) didnt enjoy it. She just cant take indian spices. she hates the smell.. ( " sharon next time i cook other food ok? maybe i'll cook the pasta you like? " chill alrite.. )


yes, there seems to be a few people only. but who cares rite?
we played captain's ball ( even my boss maid join in the game)
cycling ( which i fell badly.. due to my clumsines)
Val, Sharon and Me wanted to try out 'Kayaking' but we never found the place. duh!! we went all the way to the end... where its just right besides mcdonalds.


i'm defenitely now lookin forward for our next outing. if my company do well..... we even might get a chance to go KL/ BANGKOK together. somewhere in january.......
yippeee!! really praying hard for us to achieve the standard required.




PS; my dearest girls......... when can we meet up? you guys dont miss me is it? lets meet...

No wonder there's a phrase saying " the world is round, wat goes around come's around". because it seems that no matter what i do or how i try to salvage the problems in my current daily affairs.
i can never have a peaceful day. it always have to end with another problem for me to bear and solve.


Lately ive not been feeling well. ive been getting flu on and off for the pass on month.
and guess wat?? now theres a lump growing near my throat area. it hurts! :(
well i guess that means, ive got to meet Lily Aw tomm ( a doctor near my place).
hmmm... gonna be broke very soon if this continue.


Well anyways........... hopefully tomm will be a better day aite!

woah! i actually have a space in blogspot now. finally after many months of consideration. i finally decided to put up a blog in here.
all due to the fact i was really2 bored. and had nothing better to do at home. :)

update on my life,

currently still working and busy as always. miss my girls so so much ( lulu and zai).
havent met them for a very long time.
i miss my boo too.