Today is the point where ive reached the stage of breaking down. I've had enough of this life im living.

Everything i do, never seems to be good enough. I fail as a daughter. I totally suck being a manager. As a fren, i dont even know wat exactly im doing anymore, as a sister im the worse.. and as a gf? i dont even fucking know.

Im just so sick and tired of people not being appreciative of my presence.
if im such a pain in the ass,

then just make me vanish!

people tend to compare me with other people. i know im not perfect. but for once...... will SOMEBODY just open up their eyes, and see how hard ive been trying.


please oh please........... im not such a bad kid. everysingle thing i do, i put my family first. but y? y am i always still bad to my parent's eyes??
i worked so hard, i cry my self to sleep thinking and trying to solve the probs in my family.
but in the end? im still an ungrateful child........


my staff that i train with my own bare hands, that have been working with me for years...
ends up dissapointing me.

at times, i ask my self... as a daughter and the eldest in the family, have i done my part?

as a manager.......... am i even fit to be one?

as a fren....... have you even be there for them ?

as a gf...... am i perfect for him?


which, the answer is NO to all of the question.


haiz...