Just a split second.
For the past 4 yrs..... ive never felt this way. For the past 1yr 5 mths... ive never felt loved like this before.
Yesterday........ i had the best moments of my time spent with him. We finally got the chance to spent some quailty time. Just the 2 of us.
No wors can desribe how i feel.
As i hugged him......... i secretly made a wish, that one fine day.... i'll be able to hug him everymorning, day and night just like that. For the rest of my life........
And yeah we kissed " blush" lots and lots. ( ooh... just typing this down makes me feel so estatic )
BUT.......
today, in just a few seconds..... i feel so distraught. so disturbed, so sad.
So many things going through my mind....... :(
I received an sms from him, it wasnt for me. He accidentally sms wrongly.
Gosh.. if only anyone could feel my heart beat at that moment. I was trying to act cool bout it.
But as the day gets later.... the more my mind cant stop thinking of that sms.
so many things were running through my mind. I HATE MYSELF FOR THIS!! i dont want to be a jealous person.
but how? my hear aches........... it hurts so bad, like its being scraped.. arrgghh!!
* long sigh* here i go again complaining..... when this is the path i choose to take.
just a thought-
Would you spent the rest of your life with someone whom you love or with someone who really loves and appreciate you? ( take it, if you cant have best of both world)
Yesterday........ i had the best moments of my time spent with him. We finally got the chance to spent some quailty time. Just the 2 of us.
No wors can desribe how i feel.
As i hugged him......... i secretly made a wish, that one fine day.... i'll be able to hug him everymorning, day and night just like that. For the rest of my life........
And yeah we kissed " blush" lots and lots. ( ooh... just typing this down makes me feel so estatic )
BUT.......
today, in just a few seconds..... i feel so distraught. so disturbed, so sad.
So many things going through my mind....... :(
I received an sms from him, it wasnt for me. He accidentally sms wrongly.
Gosh.. if only anyone could feel my heart beat at that moment. I was trying to act cool bout it.
But as the day gets later.... the more my mind cant stop thinking of that sms.
so many things were running through my mind. I HATE MYSELF FOR THIS!! i dont want to be a jealous person.
but how? my hear aches........... it hurts so bad, like its being scraped.. arrgghh!!
* long sigh* here i go again complaining..... when this is the path i choose to take.
just a thought-
Would you spent the rest of your life with someone whom you love or with someone who really loves and appreciate you? ( take it, if you cant have best of both world)

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