y does it always have to be me? y am i always the only one who will be running after him. trying to make things work. feeling sorry and guilty even for the most pathethic reason.

I'm just so so tired...... I'm tired of holding back this tears. trying to act all so strong and like as though im not affected...

Yes i admit, im really scared of losing him. i love him........ but does that mean, i always have to be the one giving in, swallowing all the bitterness by myself?

Is this all a Karma?
did i break too many guy's heart, was i a spoil brat to those guys, was i always demanding? that i have to face all this pain now.............


If i just keep quiet... and wait for his call. He might never even call.......... just like last time. for 4 days he didnt call. untill i come looking for him. :'(


god......... plz help me.... plz....... is this wat i deserve to love someone so much? am i doing too much?


*gtg now... before my mum see me crying..