This time, its not his fault. He did nothing wrong. He didint pissed me off, He didnt treat me in a bad way...... Practically, everything was fine.

I am to be blamed. I asked myself this question many times, y am i still not satisfied with wat i have, how much attention do i need?
At times i really hate feeling this way. Which girls like to feel lonely and unloved?

I know not only have i broke his heart..... im sure it must have shattered him. It must have hurt sooo much.


I know how it feels like..... cause it happened to me. But y did i have to do something stupid like that, when i know how he would feel?


Gosh........ first time, ive got no words to explain , all i know, i was stupid and insane! one thing i learn.. sometimes its better to keep things in the dark.


Time is now ticking....... every single second is torturing me. I really am Begging in my heart to see him at my open house later. I cant afford to hear a last minute cancellation from him...

Watever it is........ he just need to be there. I just need to see him.

I know im wrong.... everyone does mistake. i did mine. And im SORRY...